It's amazing what life brings us each day. I never realized how loved I really am. I have the most amazing family and friends. I also have the most amazing Father in Heaven who loves me more than I could ever imagine someone loving me.
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I have been on a long emotional roller coaster these past 3 1/2 years. Infertility is not fun and I don't wish it upon anyone........well, maybe drug addicts and child abusers! (that was my brief comic relief for this post)
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It's crazy how many opinions and suggestions I've had from my 3 different specialists. All I know is that only one opinion matters.....and that is my Father in Heaven's. He knows what is best for me. He knows what my body can and cannot handle. I feel such comfort and peace when I think about my future children and family. Hearing the worst news possible, and growing from that news, has been a huge turning point for me with this trial. I'm not afraid anymore. I'm so willing to adopt, use a surrogate, or attempt to get pregnant one more time! I feel so free of worries, stresses, and fear. I'm so excited for our future family and can't wait until we are complete.
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I feel confident, and say with confidence, that my everything (spiritual, physical and mental) has been placed in the hands of the Lord and I'm willing to go and do whatever he needs me to do. I know He is waiting to bless me with more sweet spirits and I'm doing all that I can here on this earth to be able to receive those blessing in my life.
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I'm so thankful for this gospel and the knowledge that it gives me. It's amazing how happy I can be with this knowledge....even despite my worse trials and fears coming true. I'm almost happier than I was before I had this trial. I'm more thankful than I was before this trial. This isn't to say that I don't have hard days and get sad.....because I do. But it is just a momentary lapse of sadness and then I'm back up again and still very much excited about our future.
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As I always say....."Life is good"!
7 comments:
What a great post, your are such a strong women!! I hope for the best for you!
What a beautiful post. I battled the infertility roller coaster for 12 years. We had one daughter Kelly and then couldn't get any more we did everything we could and then put in our papers to adopt through LDS services and the week of the home inspections we found out we were expecting. Jessika is 12 years younger than Kelly and then we had McKall 2 years later and she was a surprise also. Kelly is now 26 with 2 children. Jessika is 14 and McKall is 12 we are so blessed and you will be too!!! Miracles do happen Keep up the positive attitude.
Life is good and sometimes bad things happen to wonderful people. There's a lesson we all have to learn sooner or later and I am so grateful for your love and your light and spirit. Keep your head up and know that you are a WONDERFUL & BEAUTIFUL MOTHER and you have a light that many want! I wish you love and luck and that all your dreams come true and your path continues forward, I know your future is BRIGHT!
I think your heart is in the exact place it needs to be for Heavenly Father to POUR some blessing on you! Humility and Faith are all he asks of us. Thanks for being such a good example of both:)
You amaze me Stef
You are inspiring!
you are a strong person stef. i admire your faith courage to keep pressing on!
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